Updated 7/01/2025

i know last month i said it was the worst month of the year by a mile, but i would say this month was basically on par with the previous one. this month, ive been in need of catharsis so much more than run of the mill distractions (and attempting to distract myself keeps feeling very painful) so it was hard to get any work done on JH9KD as a very lighthearted and impersonal type of project. i was so sure that i was finally on pace to getting it finished this year, but now im not sure if its going to happen at all. i had a lot planned for this summer but its all fallen apart for personal reasons so ive just been wasting away in spite of all of the free time i have.

even still, i have some progress stuff stocked up from the month before so id be happy to show some of that for this months yaoi news. im really satisfied with some of the artistic progress ive achieved compared to my output from 3 years prior. when you put them side by side the original looks like ass tbh, but i was pretty much similarly impressed with myself making that one at the time, so i guess the way to win at art is to always believe in yourself to the point where you can impress yourself at any point in your journey.

ive recieved a record breaking amount of fanart this month. i feel incredibly numb and that makes it hard to get the same dopamine rush i usually would from fanworks, but i would still like to bring some appreciation to the good stuff. this lovely drawing came from an edit collab made between saglrlx0 and xxtaz3ll, so i dont really know which one drew it, but feel free to support both of them as the edit is crossposted between their accounts. i was very much inclined to the style used for this drawing. it fits yaoitron very well indeed. for some reason, i tend to associate this kind of style a lot with breakcore. im really fond of the way that yaoitron is looking at you, i dont really know how to explain but its quite evocative to me, and makes me think of some sort of particular scenario where he would look at you in such a reassured gaze. it feels like recounting some kind of happy 'in the moment' memory with someone you love.

thats all for this month. sorry i didnt have anything much to say about the game. might just go back to 'treating these characters like my ocs more than a part of a greater project ambition to fufill' type hiatus mode entirely. i usually think its okay that way since we still all get to have fun with yaoitron together. we'll see. thanks for reading.